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God I'm a bitch- lol... You definitely don't want to double cross me. Evil.
I'm here listening watching Futurama and listening to this horrible CD that Davey bought me. I'm in my pj's and thinking about a ton of things. For example I'm trying to figure out what the truth is and whats not the truth. What to believe and what not to believe. Are they just words or is there hidden meaning things. ahhhh I hate being a chick, I;m doing the over-analyzing thing.
I've shut off my phone.
I've gotten two very interesting emails. They both made me cry.
I ate dinner alone tonight. I drove by my new house, waiting to get my keys.
I've stop living for yesterday and now I'm facing it.
It's to sad to think I let all these years go by wasted. I don't want to keep on wishing so I'm not spending anymore time wasted.
Today I got the chance to get away from everyone so I drove and drove, I got lost and found my way back. I hope that's a foreshadowing of my life. lol
My hair isn't as curly as it used to be and all I want to do is cut it all off. but I won't
The color of night is amazing.Current Mood:  lonely Current Music: Davey's CD |
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3 HOURS 4 MINUTES
Jimmy Eat World
Rocket Summer
Bens Folds and Ben Kweller
One stop for gas and food
Passed three accidents
One dead deer
Various forms of roadkill
My first day
My last night
Talking til 5 in the morning
Seeing naked boys chasing eachother around
Lots of beer and food and oldies on the radio at the bar
Lots of snow and lots of questions
Mom crying
Dad worried
So much to do
Get control of things
it's time...Current Mood:  anxious Current Music: DJ Colette |
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I think it was the soreness of my achy muscles and the pounding headache from lack of sleep and food that made me say those crazy things.
I'm excited for this weekend, the last official weekend living in MI
and I just found out that my cousin nikki and her husband jeff will be moving to the same area I'm moving to next spring!!!
How exciting
I will miss everyone
I love you and you and you
lol
I'm in a good mood and on my way to have dinner with an old friend
and yes I believe I'm in love, although I'm moving...lol = life is so complicated....lol
god timing is sooo badCurrent Mood:  cheerful Current Music: LCD Soundsystem |
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This is why I'm leaving.
I haven't used this in a long time, it's well overdue.
I've been packing up parts of my life in boxes for the past two weeks. Only me. No help. No support.
Why am I always doing this stuff alone, why am I always dealing with this stuff alone, why am I always crying alone.
I was driving back and forth taking boxes to the storage place and I realized it was raining and I couldn't see the road. How metaphorical for my life huh?
Raining, bad weather, the inability to drive to the place that I'm trying to get to...
I'm wet and miserable.
I wish I could just go, no boxes, no goodbyes, just leave.
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OkGo
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Nov. 10th, 2005 @ 02:52 pm
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I MET OkGo TODAY!!!!!
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This will be my last post for awhile.
If you don't already know...
I'm moving. I'm moving to a city right outside of Chicago, IL called Merrillville, IN. I have family there and a career waiting to blossom.
I have put my notice in at work and gotten my transcripts transfered.
I'm moving in a house that my dad and I will be purchasing together. I still don't know the address, but when I do I'll let you know.
I'm scheduled to move just before Thanksgiving so that gives me one month.
I will miss everyone, well not really...lol I won't miss everyone, I won't lie. I will miss the people who will miss me. I'm miss the people I love, the ones who have always treated me with respect and care. They know who they are.
It's time.
I'll post once all this crazy stuff is taken care of.
Want to hang out with me? I would love to...call me or email me.
Remember I'm only three hours away.
Nov. 2nd, 2005 @ 12:41 pm
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| How to make a AniAvena |
Ingredients:
5 parts competetiveness
5 parts courage
3 parts beauty |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little caring if desired! |
Oct. 18th, 2005 @ 11:39 am
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| » Empty Nest |
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I have decided.
After the tears after the talks I decided.
It's time for this.
I'm nervous and scared that this is wrong.
that this might be a bad idea, but I have to, otherwise how will I know.
If I make a mistake then I come back, start over.
If I made the right decision I will finally start being me again
Maybe meet someone
Maybe finally let go of things that I haven't been able to let go for a while.
I love you and I will will miss you
Oct. 11th, 2005 @ 09:40 pm
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If you really want a challenge try this one.
Olny srmat poelpe can.
cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!
Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 09:32 pm
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| » Decisions Decisions |
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So.
I have a big decision to make.
What will it be annie?
I have been thinking about this for a week.
I'm going through my pros and cons
Oct. 8th, 2005 @ 07:19 pm
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I'm not coming back
Oct. 6th, 2005 @ 08:41 pm
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I'm sittting here at the Airport.
My cousins are off trying to flirt with one of the flight attendants.
There's a Venti Non-Fat Carmel Macchiato in my hand and the strong urge to smoke a cigarette.
I spent the past two days in Indiana.
Richelle, my 1 year old cousin's birthday party was a blast.
The food was AMAZING and then the music, although it resembled the soundtrack for Dora the Explorer was fun too.
Once all the kiddies left the adults got to play.
Dad and Mom danced all night. Cha Cha here, Salsa there, Foxtrot everywhere and of course in all the mix up I finally got out to shake my thing with my Dad. He showed me a couple steps, it was more humorous than anything.
Lani ate more than anyone at our table, the girl had four plates of food plus dessert. Unfortunately it did not come out as easy as it went down. She was so backed up.
Then to end the night a special Kareoke Surprise! me. Nanay made me sing a song for everyone.
I'm anxious to go even further away and I only checked my work email once! I swear!
Cute boy at the party...details to follow. Very Bruce Lee looking, ahhh it's the whole kung foo fetish.
Time to Fly
Oct. 3rd, 2005 @ 09:11 am
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I was so caught up in _________
that I forgot how much fun I have when I'm with my friends.
Particularly the ones I spent last night with.
Apparenty all you need is a bar all to yourself, a couple 25 oz. beers, some smokes and laughter and life doesn't look so bad.
I couldn't sleep last night so I spent it watching Samarai Jack again and fell asleep on the floor with my kitty.
My vacation will do the following:
Allow me to get some rest, real rest.
Possibly get some more melanin in my skin
See my family and my indiana love
Drive a really expensive foreign vehicle
Shoot guns
Practice my tagalog
and ________(TBA)
Sep. 30th, 2005 @ 09:08 am
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Today was one of those days.
Wrong Side of the Bed
Every phone call I needed to make ended in a voicemail
Every turn I made was wrong
Every light I can to was red
Thank goodness it's over
I hate stupid skinny ass country bitches in their boyfriends giant F-350 diesel powered Harley Davison themed trucks cause they REAR END YOU IN BUMPER TO BUMPER TRAFFIC!!!
You're going down bitch...Now I have to spend money I don;t have to get my damn car fixed...
Sep. 19th, 2005 @ 10:08 pm
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Last night I had 3 dreams...
One involving oranges
One involving church
One involving lots of chairs
I've been getting a ton of headaches lately.
Especially yesterday
This morning was the best drive to work ever.
The moon was so low and so white and bright.
it looked like the cloud were just a couple yards above me, it may have been fog, but still beautiful.
I watched so many movies this weekend:
Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
Beauty Shop
Unleashed
Wedding Date
Princess Mononoke
Dead and Breakfast
Just one of those movie weekends
Fall is coming.
Mornings are getting colder
Leaves are starting to turn.
I like the fall.
so to celebrate I went shopping, lots of new things...
Sep. 18th, 2005 @ 08:51 am
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I've figured out my theme song:
Foolish Heart by Journey or Steve Perry whatever...
It goes something like this.
I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I know
But with each passin hour
Someone, somehow
Will be there, ready to share
I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part
Of the fool again, before I begin
Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore
I'm feelin that feelin again
I've been playin a game I can't win
Love's knockin on the door
Of my heart once more
Think I'll let him in
Before I begin
Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before, you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore
Foolish heart
Foolish, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore
Foolish heart
Oh foolish
foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish
foolish heart
Foolish heart
Sep. 14th, 2005 @ 10:38 pm
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My tagalog is getting soooo galing...lol
Basta tayo
mag kasama laging marong umagang kay ganda
haharapin natin
You know life is ridiculous when you get excited cause you paid $2.68 for gas...
Just a thought
No news is good news
Sep. 13th, 2005 @ 10:16 pm
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| » Nothing to Export |
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I think my recent attitude has come from my frustration.
I'm growing this nonchalance about everything, what would bother me and would upset me before doesn't. I just get this "I don't care" attitude about everything.
I know who cares and who doesn't
I know who's lying and who's feeding me bullshit.
It took Scott to make me realize that last night.
he's always got this brutally honest opinion about things and it definitely puts things in perspective for me.
I should thank him.
Life's so busy right and I can't seem to slow down.
Drinks and Whirlyball with the managers last night.
I hesistated to go, I didn't want to, but I ended up having an amazing time...
It was really fun
and I did a couple shots with some of them so it made things pretty damn interesting...lol
Drinking with your co-workers is the best, or the funniest...
I don't think some of them should have driven home...lol
Today I'm heading out to Holly.
Seeing Chris...I need to
It's time for this to happen.
and one piece of news that I can't seem to stop smiling about...
Annie's getting her raise...thank god!!! It makes work a little more bearable...lol
Sep. 10th, 2005 @ 09:54 am
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I sitting here watching Ghost Hunters. It's actually scaring me
Worked long again today.
6-7...I'm dying. really. My body needs rest, I'm not eating well, sleeping during the afternoon and evening when I come home, smoking alot.
Today I realized one thing.
Love comes from simple phone calls, light-hearted emails, cups of coffee in the morning, and funny text messages.
It doesn't need to said out loud and it doesn't need to visit every weekend, it just needs a little reminder every now and then.
Love comes from purrs, from homemade dinners, and invitations in the mail.
I'm just tired today.
Tomorrow is the last day of work for the week
Still Dayna no call
There's a cute nerdy guy on Ghost Hunters, I should probably stop watching this, I'm getting really scared- lol
I need some rest this weekend, but I don;t want to miss anything.
Sep. 7th, 2005 @ 09:31 pm
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Well in two days I have work a total of 26 hours...needless to say I will taking Tuesday off
work has me so frustrated lately
everyone's in a bad mood and it's like I work with complete idiots.
Can't figure out this and can't figure out that. calling me for stupid shit. bothering me all the damn time.
I think I need my vacation bad.
I don't think anyone realizes how hard I really work, they don't see me all day long, they don't know.
and I'm tired of people thinking I owe them something. grrr
Other than that life is boring
Suka is the only thing keeping a smile on my face
Liz was right...
old lady with a cat scenario isn't looking too bad-lol
I miss you
Sep. 6th, 2005 @ 12:36 am
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